thought it all was Kesar . Today she is in a dilemma and wonders if she should go ahead with her decision. After a moment of clarity, Gulaal will decide to go forward with breaking the deyarvatu in front of the village panchayat. Kesar, who has always been in love with her, will accept her decision. Gulaal will go to her maika while Kesar will return to Motabha’s house.”
Vacillating between two decisions, Gulaal, who has been in a turmoil about the deyarvatu, talks about her dilemma. “I had decided to break the deyarvatu right from the start, but during this period I have gone through a lot. The accusations from my family members have hurt me irrevocably. I have been accused of snatching away Vasant from my in-laws and I don’t want to hear the same about Kesar. I had married him to keep him safe and secure my place in the house, but today things are different. My in-laws look at me differently and this separation from them has cost me a lot. I am broken and hurt. I have my doubts regarding my choice but I feel the decision I made in a calm state is justified than my indecision now. I should go ahead with breaking the deyarvatu and give Kesar and his family a new beginning. I want him to be happy. My parents were against this decision when Kesar announced he would break the deyarvatu but thankfully this time when the final decision came, they are with me. I don’t know what I would have done without their support. Their love and guidance means a lot to me.”
Does she look at Kesar differently now than she used to earlier? “Yes of course. I admit Kesar has been a good support and he has been a great companion during my tough times. He is a person I can rely on and someone who understands me. We got off on the wrong foot when he returned from boarding school but I am glad things are better now and he has matured too.
What does she expect in future? “My destiny and luck will bring what is in store for me. I am not thinking of the future for now,” says Gulaal.
Kesar too is in despair. Did he wish that Gulaal didn’t break the deyarvatu? “I want Gulaal’s happiness even at the cost of my own. She is the most important person in my life and I am ready to do anything for her. If breaking the deyarvatu, gives her a sense of calm and peace, so be it. I would suffer than let her endure any pain. I am glad we became sort of friends in these three months. Though the time to break the deyarvatu approached and we had to leave the house, we supported each other and forged a deep bond. I did whatever I could for her happiness and in the future too, I will do all I can in my capacity. What I feel for her is more than a friend and less than a lover. As for the future, well I don’t know. Whatever has to happen, will happen.”
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